NEAR-DEATH CLARITY AND SHIFTING THE BURDEN
Kevin described driving to his first real audition (for a community theater production of Rumpelstiltskin) in an old Datsun pickup.
The accelerator broke and dropped to the floor, sending his speedometer from 60 to 80. He saw brake lights up ahead:
“I had my wits about me at one point, halfway through, when I realized I didn’t want to die. I threw the clutch in. There was never such a terrible whine but [it did engage]. . . . I was able to turn the key off, and I coasted to a stop, pulled over into the emergency lane, and didn’t kill anybody. I jumped out of that fucking car, hopped over that fence, and hitchhiked to my audition because I wasn’t going to miss it. I left it on the freeway.”
“Because I had someplace I wanted to be. I had a place [where] something was going to happen . . . and, of course, nothing did. I wasn’t good enough. I didn’t have enough skill. I didn’t really know about Rumpelstiltskin. . . . But my imagination started to burn with the possibilities.
“I started to fall in love with something. Didn’t know if I was going to be able to make a living at it, but I finally got rid of the whispers in my head [from my parents], which were
‘What are you going to be?’ And I’d say, ‘It’s none of your business. I’m going to be what I want to be.’”
“When I articulated that I didn’t care anymore about what anybody thought about what I did except me, all the weight of the world came off my shoulders, and everything became possible. It shifted to everybody else [being] worried. Now they’re worried. But everything for me, it shifted to a place where I felt free.”
Excerpt From: Timothy Ferriss & Arnold Schwarzenegger. “Tools of Titans.”
What are you going to be, Arsenio? You should just become a dentist. Don’t be a dental hygienist. When will you do this, and that?
Worry about yourself and stop asking redundant questions about someone else’s life instead?
Kevin Costner, of all people, has been through the same things us “normal” people go through. However, in the wake of absolute disappointment, something was born within him to whereas he couldn’t give it up.
He no longer cared about the naysayers, spoke to the ignorance, and even listen to the negative opinions of others.
When will this Satori moment come for you?