You weren’t an accident. You weren’t mass produced. You aren’t an assembly-line product. You were deliberately planned, specifically gifted, and lovingly position on the Earth by the Master Craftsman – Max Lucado
You have to believe that you are capable of making these dreams become a reality. You have to believe that you’re able to pull it off. Did Roger Banister believe he can break the four minute barrier back in the 1950’s? Yes. And what happened after that? More than 20,000 people have done it, including high school students.
Whether you call it self-esteem, self-confidence, or self-assurance, it is a deep-seated believe that you have what it takes – the abilities, inner resources, talent and skills to create the results you want.
I’ll be honest, the majority of us had run-of-the-mill parents who inadvertently passed on to us the same limiting beliefs and negative conditioning they grew up with. In my household, money was scarce. It was the ultimate limitation until my father came home with a brand new Dodge Grand Prix 1995….yet we had the water cut off?
Remember, the past is the past. There is no useful payoff for blaming my parents, your parents, and everything else for our current level of self-confidence. It’s now time to take charge.
How can you do that? You’re going to have to give up the “I can’t.” Also, ‘I can’t has a vast array of cousins in conditional form such as “I wish” and “if only”…just to name a few. These phrases disempower you. They actually make us weaker when we say them.
Does everyone remember Susan Boyle? The unknown 48-year-old woman when in the spring of 2009, she skyrocketed onto the international stage. You received two grammy nominations and amassed an estimated net worth of more than 37 million dollars.
Brianna and Brittany Winner, by the age of 12, completed their first novel, The Strand Prophecy, which was distributed nationwide. Not only that, they completed four novels, a screenplay, a guide to writing, and a comic book…..oh, and they were both dyslexic.
Don’t ever say you can’t do something. If you got a dream, you gotta protect it. When people can’t do it themselves, they wanna tell you that you can’t do it. If you want something, go get it. Period. – Will Smith Pursuit of Happiness
Podcast – https://www.spreaker.com/episode/8334086
Children of all sizes, color, ages, religions, and backgrounds shared a common area in what I was observing just two days ago. I saw students sharing the same laughs, doing the same things, and speaking the same way without any hateful rhetoric.
How come they understand but the rest of the world doesn’t?
I’m going to deep-dive (my new favorite word) into what could possibly work in terms of ASEAN countries (Indonesia, Philippines, Thailand, Myanmar, Malaysia, Singapore, Brunei, Vietnam, Cambodia, & Laos) accepting each other for who they are and living amongst each other.
First and foremost, I respect what Angelina Jolie and Praya Lundberg are doing in terms of working with the United Nations. They could be huge activists in pushing what this could be.
If you look at the countries I listed above, could an organisation be developed so that students from different countries can study in other countries?
I’m not talking about agencies who are after the pockets of beings, I’m talking about the governments of all countries choosing a good 1,000 of their highest, most prestigious achievers (or even those with learning disabilities – doesn’t matter) to get a plane ticket and go to another school that works in accordance with the organization?
How about getting schools to work with one another in a collaborative effort (non-international) to send students to and from their schools?
See, these little things – brainstorming ways you could blend with other cultures and coexist could make a massive difference in your town, community, school, state, country, and world.
What I saw just a couple of days ago restored my faith in humanity and gave me a vast array of ideas that could help benefit society.
Podcast – https://www.spreaker.com/episode/11299867
NEAR-DEATH CLARITY AND SHIFTING THE BURDEN
Kevin described driving to his first real audition (for a community theater production of Rumpelstiltskin) in an old Datsun pickup.
The accelerator broke and dropped to the floor, sending his speedometer from 60 to 80. He saw brake lights up ahead:
“I had my wits about me at one point, halfway through, when I realized I didn’t want to die. I threw the clutch in. There was never such a terrible whine but [it did engage]. . . . I was able to turn the key off, and I coasted to a stop, pulled over into the emergency lane, and didn’t kill anybody. I jumped out of that fucking car, hopped over that fence, and hitchhiked to my audition because I wasn’t going to miss it. I left it on the freeway.”
“Because I had someplace I wanted to be. I had a place [where] something was going to happen . . . and, of course, nothing did. I wasn’t good enough. I didn’t have enough skill. I didn’t really know about Rumpelstiltskin. . . . But my imagination started to burn with the possibilities.
“I started to fall in love with something. Didn’t know if I was going to be able to make a living at it, but I finally got rid of the whispers in my head [from my parents], which were
‘What are you going to be?’ And I’d say, ‘It’s none of your business. I’m going to be what I want to be.’”
“When I articulated that I didn’t care anymore about what anybody thought about what I did except me, all the weight of the world came off my shoulders, and everything became possible. It shifted to everybody else [being] worried. Now they’re worried. But everything for me, it shifted to a place where I felt free.”
Excerpt From: Timothy Ferriss & Arnold Schwarzenegger. “Tools of Titans.”
What are you going to be, Arsenio? You should just become a dentist. Don’t be a dental hygienist. When will you do this, and that?
Worry about yourself and stop asking redundant questions about someone else’s life instead?
Kevin Costner, of all people, has been through the same things us “normal” people go through. However, in the wake of absolute disappointment, something was born within him to whereas he couldn’t give it up.
He no longer cared about the naysayers, spoke to the ignorance, and even listen to the negative opinions of others.
When will this Satori moment come for you?
Does anyone remember the Prince EA video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dqTTojTija8) that shook the world up last year?
Some of the antagonists stated things such as, “this is ridiculous. How were we able to improve technologically without our education system now?”
Well, there’s a massive difference. There’s a different between systematically sitting in a classroom without communicating and collaborating with one another – and then there’s going to an international school that has between 20-60 different nationalities. A place where there are no boundaries, color, creed, religion, or racial involvement. A school where people with turbans can run the halls with their ‘white’ friends and Africans have classmates from all over the world talking to him – not about his color, either.
That society truly exists. I took a stance on YouTube, backing the colored people here in Thailand, to getting an invitation to a euphoric bubble in the heart of Bangkok.
As I walked through this school, I heard languages popping up from everyone, energy levels extremely high, people with smiles on their faces, little girls of all nationalities coming up to me and asking for my name rather than standing behind their teacher because I looked different from them.
A social area where lots of students gather to eat lunch with over 40 different nationalities high-fiving each other, smiling, laughing, listening to each other’s music, and all of them were “different.”
I saw 7 year old girls making lunch while tasting their own ingredients, I saw a 15 year old writing and composing music among so many other things.
Get this, this school doesn’t have subjects.
That’s right, elementary schools through high schools we are forced to learn things that aren’t in sync with our core genius or definite chief-aim in life. Alot of pseudo teachers in Thailand say, “Thai students are lazy,” but maybe they’re just lazy of this traditional style, bogus teaching, yeah?
These students learn in themes. No text books are given and the amount of camaraderie that’s bestowed and instilled in each individual is gratifying because they simply don’t leave one another behind. It’s a utopia where people, of all cultures, can exist amongst each other. In the end, they go to the likes of Yale, Harvard, Cambridge, Oxford, Tokyo Uni, & the ‘creme of the crop’ schools as most would say.
This has yet to be implemented around the rest of the world.
When will it begin?
A lot, says I! Honest, when I first moved here, I met wonderful people. An array of wonderful people, then when one incident (in terms of not being let into a bar because I was black, and hearing rude remarks, and seeing how my Irish and American colleagues were treated far better at work and society than me) led to many others….I decided to believe that all Thai people were openly racist towards people of color.
I want you to ask yourself these questions…
What has each belief cost you in the past, and what has it cost people you’ve loved in the past? What have you lost because of this belief? See it, hear it, feel it.
What is each costing you and people you care about in the present? See it, hear it, feel it.
What will each cost you and people you care about 1, 3, 5, and 10 years from now? See it, hear it, feel it.”
Here’s an example from an audio text from a persistent smoker….
“If they are coughing like crazy right now [from lung cancer], how do they keep smoking? They say to themselves, ‘Well, I smoked for years and it was never a problem.’ Or they say, ‘It will get better in the future. After all, George Burns lived until 102 smoking cigars.’ They find the exception to the rule because no one knows what the future is. We can make it up, we can convince ourselves it’s going to be okay. Or we can remember a past time in which it was okay. That’s how people get out of it.”
We continue to do the same things that we know are killing us, from past thoughts and actions, incidents, to physical things such as smoking. We always find a way to convince ourselves that it’s going to “be all right,” don’t we?
It’s kind of like when we feel pain in one time zone—meaning past, present, or future—we just switch to another time zone rather than change, because change brings so much uncertainty and so much instability and so much fear to people.
There was a time that Tony Robbins held a seminar called Unleash The Power and did an emotional flood exercise which I practically do every morning in terms of thinking of some of the best times I felt loved, in joy, and in tune as a child. With Oprah Winfrey in attendance, among so many others, you can see tears streaming down the faces of the attendees because we literally forget about all the great that has happened in our lives. Video: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smhzRqHkpZs)
“Perhaps it’s time for you to take a temporary break from pursuing goals to find the knots in the garden hose that, once removed, will make everything else better and easier? It’s incredible what can happen when you stop driving with the emergency brake on.”
Excerpt From: Timothy Ferriss & Arnold Schwarzenegger. “Tools of Titans.”
Award winning author, nominated for a Nobel Peace Prize, and led the creation of a groundbreaking mindfulness-based emotional intelligence course for employees called Search Inside Yourself (which had a waitlist of at least six months).
He asks everyone, “how could you sustain your meditation practice that it becomes so sustaining? Here’s a few suggestions.”
Yes, this goes for just about anything. That accountability partner that holds you accountable for things you commit to. You’re more predisposed to being successful than to not having a buddy. Look at a gym routine, for instance. The best workout I’ve had since 2009 just happened a few weeks ago when one of my students, who’s a brilliant pianist, wanted to rock out a gym session with me.
1 hour later, tons of intervals later, battle ropes, non-stop burpees, squats, among so many other exercises – my body was completely shell-shocked to the point I stumbled out of the gym.
“We suggest finding a “mindfulness buddy” and committing to a 15-minute conversation every week, covering at least these two topics:
a. How am I doing with my commitment to my practice?
b. What has arisen in my life that relates to my practice?
We also suggest ending the conversation with the question, “How did this conversation go?”
We instituted this in our mindfulness-based emotional intelligence program (Search Inside Yourself) and found it very effective.” – Chade Meng
2. Do Less
This always goes back to the micro wins rather than macro. I’m not saying go running 30 minutes before it feels like a chore. I’m saying walk/run for ten minutes. Also, put some good tunes in your ear; better yet, a podcast that’s inspiring. However long the podcast is, you walk for that time and practice gratitude and affirmations….which is another thing you can listen to.
3. Take One Breath A Day
“There are two reasons why one breath is important. The first is momentum. If you commit to one breath a day, you can easily fulfill this commitment and preserve the momentum of your practice. Later, when you feel ready for more, you can pick it back up easily. You can say you don’t have 10 minutes today to meditate, but you cannot say you have no time for one breath, so making it a daily practice is extremely doable.
The second reason is having the intention to meditate is itself a meditation. This practice encourages you to arise an intention to do something kind and beneficial for yourself daily, and over time, that self-directed kindness becomes a valuable mental habit. When self-directed kindness is strong, mindfulness becomes easier.”
Excerpt From: Timothy Ferriss & Arnold Schwarzenegger. “Tools of Titans.”
These three simple rules from Chade Meng could help you with your meditation, and just getting started on big projects at work, working out, even committing to making your lunch in the morning.
In addition, don’t forget to practice joy loving-kindness, which is a technique that is used just by walking down the street, looking at someone and thinking to yourself “I wish for this person to be happy, and I wish for that person to be happy.” That’s it. You’ll be happier than the previous 10 seconds. Try it!
Through the blending of two or more minds, in a spirit of PERFECT HARMONY, the principle of mind chemistry may be made to develop sufficient power to enable the individuals whose minds have been thus blended to perform seemingly superhuman feats.” – Napoleon Hill
He wrote this 89 years ago. What does this pertain to? Lets look at it from a sports aspect.
Michael Jordan and Scottie Pippen, who are two NBA legends, established just this. If you want to throw in Dennis Rodman, you could, just because he knew exactly where everyone’s shot was going so he positioned himself to rebound the ball much easier. This is why he is the best rebounder of all-time.
When Scottie joined Jordan and achieved unbelievable heights, there was no stopping them. Charles Barkley, Patrick Ewing, Karl Malone, John Stockton, Olajuwon, and so many other top-50 players had no chance, which is incredible.
A lot of people would deem Michael Jordan as a superhuman….but it was working with Scottie in perfect harmony that ultimately propelled him to his first ever finals where he took out even Magic Johnson. These 1-2 punches were two minds working in perfect harmony together.
Power, in unlimited quantities, may be enjoyed by any group of men, or men and women, who possess the wisdom with which they blend their own personalities and their own immediate individual interests to work in perfect spirit.
The moment two minds begin to take divergent roads of interest the individual units of each mind separate, and the third element, known as a “mastermind,” which grew out of the friendly or harmonious alliance, will disintegrate. Look at Kobe Bryant and Shaquille O’Neal, for example.
How about the three men who are known for their great achievements in their respective fields of economic, business and professional endeavor back in the early 1900’s: Henry Ford, Thomas A. Edison & Harvey S. Firestone.
A very interesting segment on Mr. Ford’s new automobile in process was one of perfection. In 1927, it is said that he received advance orders, with cash payments, for more than 375,000 cars. 600$ per car that would amount to 225 million dollars which he received before a single car was delivered. Such is the power of confidence in Ford’s Ability.
Mr. Edison, the man who brought together the point of a needle and a piece of revolving wax, in such a way that the vibration of the human voice may be recorded and reproduced through the modern talking machine.
Mr. Firestone was, and continues to be the moving spirit in the great Firestone Tire industry, respectively. These three men would go away into the woods once a year for a period of rest, meditation and recuperation. These three men blended their minds together and created a mastermind group that took America by storm. It’s kind of like connecting electric batteries to a single transmission wire, ultimately stepping up the power flowing over that line.
That’s who you want around you. It’s time to figure out that mastermind group.
Vilfredo Pareto deserves all of the buzz and this isn’t an Oscar joke, either. 😉
He’s famous for the “law of distribution” which is now known as “Pareto’s Law and it basically states this….his mathematical formula was used to demonstrate a grossly uneven but predictable distribution of wealth in society—80% of the wealth and income was produced and possessed by 20% of the population—also applied outside of economics.
If we go to what’s happening on the planet now, 90%+ of the money that’s being earned is owned by 2% of the world’s population (Bob Proctor Circa 2006). Do you think that’s an accident? That’s no accident.
Well, let’s jut say Tim Ferris was working those hefty 15 hour days – seven days on – no days off. At the dawn of the day, he was making phone calls to the UK. When the clock struck 9am, he was making phone calls domestically all over the country before making phone calls from 5pm-12am to Japan and New Zealand. Just a helpless man with no way out.
Before we get into what happened, here’s a summarised version of Pareto’s Law.
80% of the consequences flow from 20% of the causes.
80% of the results come from 20% of the effort and time.
80% of company profits come from 20% of the products and customers.
80% of all stock market gains are realized by 20% of the investors and 20% of an individual portfolio.
Tim decided to give Pareto’s Law a run for his money, and he succeeded tremendously.
Let’s try putting it this way. Let’s say you’re a telemarketer making 100 phone calls a day and sending follow up emails along with those phone calls. I guess that’s what accounts to 15 hours workloads; conversely, you decide to chase only the leads that you were making money from.
Tim evaluated everything, even in terms of advertising, and realized that only 5 of the 100 was actually generating money for him. For the other 95? He cut loose. Why? There wasn’t any revenue that he was chasing.
This goes for my life, too, on a much more personal level.
If you look at these ridiculous social media apps such as tinder and scout, some days (two years ago) I would waste an entire morning trying to have conversation with local women who end up ranting about how bad “black people were” or blocking me. OOPS! Can I get that time back?
Suddenly, I asked myself, “what’s accounting for more than 80% of my unhappiness? Oh, engagement with foolish human beings within these borders.” When I identified the problem, I literally not only regained my happiness, but the negative thoughts, too.
Since then, I haven’t even thought about people within these borders (which amassed to so much of my bickering time) and now I’m fiercely productive in everything I’m doing, including my personal projects such as writing a book, making a website, and my podcast.
Figure out what your unhappiness is. Figure out the problem that’s costing you so much valuable time and pleasant conversations with other people. Once you do, it’s like killing two birds with one stone….and it feels DAMN GOOD! (I’m not a bird killer).
Podcast – https://www.spreaker.com/episode/11186594
“In the strictest sense, you shouldn’t be trying to do more in each day, trying to fill every second with a work fidget of some type. It took me a long time to figure this out. I used to be very fond of the results-by-volume approach.”
Excerpt From: Timothy Ferriss. “The 4-Hour Workweek, Expanded and Updated.”
My colleague would sometimes tell me to “stop complaining” and “start working on all the entrepreneurial projects you have” instead of filling in the empty time slots with ‘now’ money.
That’s a profound way of putting it. Why do not only myself, but most of the people in the world think that the harder we work, the more money we make?
Bob Proctor gave a story about him cleaning offices with a mop all over New York and Montreal. He said one day he woke up on the pavement, people over him, sirens lights reflecting the nearby buildings and people asking him if “he was ok.”
He said, “what happened?”
“You passed out.”
It took a near-death experience to wake him up. NDE experience to make him realize that working harder isn’t going to earn him a lot of money.
“Being busy is most often used as a guise for avoiding the few critically important but uncomfortable actions. The options are almost limitless for creating “busyness”
“In fact, if you want to move up the ladder in most of corporate America, and assuming they don’t really check what you are doing (let’s be honest), just run around the office holding a cell phone to your head and carrying papers. Now, that is one busy employee! Give them a raise.”
Even if you tell your boss that you can triple your production and work less hours, you’ll still be handed a pink simple. In corporate America, you’re just a number. You’re not even part of the fabric. You’re replaceable.
Well, it’s time to become irreplaceable.
I was on a treadmill with one of my colleagues thinking about the Bali bombings and trying to conjure up an excuse NOT TO GO to Bali. Given the events that took place a decade and a half ago – a person, such as myself, would be terrified of heading to a resort island because of extremist groups.
“What? Are you seriously afraid of something that hasn’t happened in 15 years? Are you just making excuses? Stop it. You sound ridiculous. Just go!” he said.
The next couple of weeks of pondering lead to me finally booking a ticket of course on Singapore Airlines (the fear of flying disintegrates when you fly with 5 star airlines).
I’m going to Bali!
The Lead Up
Booking a hotel at the famous Baiyoke Sky in Bangkok was essential in terms of traveling to the airport in the morning. Is the area around the hotel legitimate? Not necessarily. A bit dodgy once you step downstairs to be honest, but it was quiet and good enough for traveling instead of hauling from the outer suburbs while trying to beat the traffic. Not worth it.
Bangkok Airport, which is still technically new to the area, has it’s own nice perks. Over the last four years, massive renovations have taken place to whereas you can charge your phone at stand-alone-kiosks! Yeah, Americans….I know. Delta Airlines provides passengers at Sky Harbour International Airport in Arizona this for free, but Thailand is a completely different place. When I saw some of the flight attendants and airport personnel setting up shop for the flight from Bangkok to Singapore, I bursted into excitement before the gorgeous Singapore Airlines A320 (smaller version) came roaring into the gate. Ahhhh…alas! Here’s the beginning of my crazed trip!
Changi International Airport – Singapore
I was extremely critical of Changi the last time around because at the wee hours of the morning, there isn’t anything open. Given the fact that skytrax and other award giving websites deemed this to be the #1 airline in the world, I expect there to be currency exchange counters open and at least trains running through the terminals. NOPE!
However, during the day…it’s wonderful. I still believe that the signage is just too much at times. Too overwhelming and very hard to figure out what to do. For those traveling to Changi, be sure to figure out exactly what you’re going to do upon arrival or you’ll just be running in circles.
Gorgeously amazing flight attendants with caramel skin (Balinese I’m guessing) doing a last run of assisting passengers before the descent. Unfortunately, it was nearing 9pm at night, which takes away the gorgeous daytime view of the island, Mt. bromo, and a few other places. I recall seeing some lights in the distance outside my window, but the terrifying part about it was the glare coming from the ocean. We were literally 100m from the water with no airport in sight. FINALLY (which seemed like forever) the landing came and I took a huge breather. Wow, as an African American, being from the neighborhood I’m from…..I’ve arrived to Indonesia, which is my first time arrival and 11th country. CHECK!
From immigration officers telling Chinese people to go away, from them not even checking my bags or suspecting anything suspicious of me. Thank you, Bali. First time here and there isn’t any racial profile going on. Once I walk outside the terminal, my hotel (Sintesa Jimbaran) and private driver greeted me. He took my luggage, went to the car, and then spoke about Bali in FLUENT ENGLISH about the language on the island, people, religion, and just about everything else. The most important part of the trip…..why? I felt there was a connection. He was talking from the soul, unlike most Thai taxi drivers who sound overly friendly and make the wrong left turn to make more money on the meter. This gentleman spoke with genuinty and such truthfulness that’s even indescribable. When this happened, I then knew that these were going to be some amazing people.
Sintesa Jimbaran Hotel
This hotel was the definition of sheer beauty. I arrived and was greeted by smiles; men who were wearing these large, gown like robes and accommodating everything about me. They already knew who I was and greeted me by name, too. After getting to the hotel around 10:00pm, the concierge opened my door and I walked into an ice cold room (just the way I like it) and saw just how massive it was. Spa in the tub? Rain shower? Enormous bed and jazz music playing?
I sat down. I cried. “Arsenio, I’m so proud of you. What you’ve done these last several years overcoming immense obstacles in Thailand – look where you are now. Look around! If you would’ve asked yourself back in the summer of 2012, hearing your family complain about not having 10$…..do you think you would be here four years later.” I held my hands up to my face and let out a “YESSSSSSS! I’m so happy and grateful for everything I’ve achieved!”
Is this happiness?
The Morning After – and I’m not talking about remorse, either.
Sunrise, greenery, cloud formations, wonderful breakfast, 5 star concierge greeting me and talking to me as if I’m part of their family, running beachside, impeccable breakfast. Should I say more? I recall staring with a large grin at my face at the water coming onto the beach. The sounds of the waves crashing. Surfers from Spain laughing while trying to catch some low-tide waves, wife sitting in awe with her chin to the sky – breathing deeply.
This is what happiness is.
Since living in Thailand and reading up on famous authors, I’ve grown to love animals much more than before, and cherish everything about these gentle giants. Having a tiger, sniffing away on top of a caged truck, was pretty terrifying to say the absolute least. The brown cows that have horns whereas if you cut their horns off, they would bleed to death. The infamously famous komodos that lay as if they’re dead in pure darkness and a stand-alone elephant (very ominous) just waving his trunk in pure darkness. HA! Damn, I love animals!
Met one of the most lovely Australian families EVER during the trip. The little boy, who was five, felt like a son. He asked me so many questions and I felt as if I was his teacher. The daughter was like, “omg my name is shanequa and I want to go to New York!” A 12 year old utterly infatuated with America and parents telling me, “hey, you’re young! Don’t worry about getting married right now!” HAHA! What an incredible night safari. Oh, and temple run? The game that took the world by storm a little over 5 years ago? Yeah…I found out where that tradition comes from. RIGHT HERE! The girls…..phew, lets just leave it at that. I proposed. THERE! I SAID IT!
Tough Mudder – The Monster From Hell
And the reason I came to Bali to begin with. To push myself not only mentally and psychologically, but physically. The hellish course (what it was suppose to be) turned into one of the funnest events I’ve ever done in my life. The variety of cultures from the Singaporeans who flew in from Singapore, to some of the people in the picture above who work for a newspaper in Jakarta, Indonesia, to some of the finest women I’ve seen in my life from other parts of Indonesia. Oh, man….WHAT A DAY!
Yeah….Bali was another mental barrier that was crushed. The mental barrier thinking I was going to get blown to pieces because of events that took place at the dawn of the new century. See, these things that we see on TV can drive us to insanity. I met some of the most wonderfully wonderful muslims on top of that, too. The banjo playing band at the airport whom was singing, “la bamba” almost brought me to tears because their symphonic rhythm while playing in such a harmonious way…..these people were….happy. Very happy. I felt something on this island that I’ve never felt anywhere else on this planet, including Hawaii.
I felt serenity.
I felt bliss.
And getting aboard an absolutely gorgeous A777-300ER, I set off back to Singapore-Bangkok with a completely different mindset about my Balinese.
Thank you so much.
Mount Bromo says HI!
Arrival – https://www.spreaker.com/episode/9519588
Day 2 – excursion https://www.spreaker.com/episode/9529788
Day 3 – Tough Mudder https://www.spreaker.com/episode/9538900
Day 4 – Tough Mudder Conquered
The end of Bali – https://www.spreaker.com/episode/9545169