Ramble of Positivity: Episode 19 – The Emergence of ??????

Man, oh man! It’s been a long time since I’ve done a ramble of positivity, and I’m super grateful to be back! Two weeks into the New Years….it’s definitely at a surplus in terms of projects, teaching and learning.  However, there is a little bit of an issue.

Now, I told myself I needed to live in these day-tight compartments because I have no idea what’s going on in the future.  Honestly, within the next three months, there’s a massive chance that I might experience a major transition (leaving from Thailand).

At the beginning of the New Year, I thought I was destined to land a job with a 65-year-old language school in Bangkok.  The interview process was superb and everything went well.  However, after a follow-up email and a week later, I got scared.  I felt that something was happening, but wasn’t sure what.  That feeling lead to me not getting the job for VERY OBVIOUS THAI REASONS and then there was the question: “should I keep doing this?”

I’ve preached so much about going after your purpose.  I’m getting ideas now about developing a curriculum online that students can easily access and learn English all over the world – a system that can trump language centers in a heartbeat.  This is going to take some massive pondering and setting up, but I’m pretty excited about it.

There comes a time in life, however, when you just get sick and tired of nonsense.  I’ve dealt with racial degradation for five years already.  In the beginning, it was new.  I needed to go through the amount of hell for me to become the influential person I am today.  On the other hand, the things that I continue going through today is just — boring.  I already got the point.  Yes, I’m a brown guy living in one of the most anti-brown guy countries on the face of planet Earth….which brings me to the questions….

Am I still learning?

  • Hell no.

Am I still growing?

  • In terms of my podcast, YouTube, Herbalife, speaking, etc….absolutely.  As a teacher in my primary job – absolutely not.

Are there still opportunities?

  • The only way I stay in Thailand is if I work at a multi-national country and make over 100,000 baht (3,300 USD). Other than that, side-projects are great, but they don’t provide anymore than just that – a side project.

Do I still want to live here?

  • Well, lets just say in a perfect world everything goes well and I can work in Bangkok….my max is one year — this year.  After that, I’m finished.  Unless something miraculous happens, I’m over Asia.

Is this a place to live for the next ten years?

  • I don’t know what opportunity Thailand provides anymore because of the amount of obstacles I have to go through.  The proving grounds and continuous (can you send us a video of how you teach) versus other teachers getting the job because of the color of their skin — it’s just pointless.  I don’t have to prove myself anymore.  With Facebook pages in the education and podcast sector totalling over 10,000 likes and constant content creation: “you said I needed to make a video because?”

What’s the end goal?

  • True happiness.  True fulfillment.  That’s why I do my ‘wheels of life’ on a monthly basis.  However, if there’s one area that’s causing 80% of my unhappiness, it’s the constant “needing a job” and trying to figure out the process.  My end goal is to obvious have my website up and running, posting videos on Facebook regularly, creating blogs, putting out content, doing things with other students and creating videos on a multitude of platforms.  On top of that, I still absolutely love teaching, but other than the money, what’s the point of staying here anymore?  I need to be smart about the process and see what situation I’ll possibly be heading into.  If I can make residual income on a monthly basis, Thailand would be finished.  Let’s just put it that way.

I’m so happy and grateful for being able to teach wonderful students a language and an idea with that language over the last three days.

I’m truly grateful for the present I got from a Deputy Prime Minister last night – and also knowledge along with that.

With all my heart, Im thankful for all areas of my life.  I’m extremely thankful for the wonderful people I’ve met the past few days and the dozens of new friends I’ve made.  I’m grateful for the posters on my FB pages who want more.  I’m thankful for my friends who tune into my blog, along with other bloggers; and I’m also super happy about my podcast and everyone viewing my videos on YouTube.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

Now, I just added in the emergence….and you will be amazed who this person is.  17 years…..and he decided to add me on FB.  Oh, what a story this is going to be!  Only in the podcast!

Podcast

https://www.spreaker.com/user/thearseniobuckshow/the-ramble-of-positivity-episode-19-the-

 

Personal Development & Physical Environment Goals For 2018

I combined the both together because there’s not much to report.  There are specific areas of my life that can certainly use some work – so let’s zero in on them.

Personal Development

Fear kind of gets to me still.  The fear of not getting a job.  The fear of leaving Thailand for Santiago, Chile.  It’s an exciting fear, but I do believe that I’m resisting a lot from happening because I wait anxiously and think too much (as most of us do).  In that case, I need to find a book that can help with fear.  The worrying book by Dale Carnegie was absolutely STELLAR; and I still use it to this day, but I need something that digs deep into my mind and can tell me, “um, Arsenio…what the hell are you scared for?”

I’ve done some extraordinary podcasts, gone through some books, and read hundreds of pages in 2017 for my blog and podcast that lead to not only me instilling lots of prized information, but changing the lives of so many people around the world.  That’s such an accomplishment.

So what’s the plan for this year? I need to keep learning.  Hell, I believe I can improve my writing style.  Different complex sentence structures and need to vary my vocabulary much more – especially in my book.

Spanish, which I haven’t listened to since Wednesday, is something I’m preparing and practicing for (potential move to Chile is becoming larger).

How can I become a better teacher, student, lover, and so many other things?  This is all part of personal development.

Physical Environment

My place, which I just moved into two weeks ago, is marvellous.  I’m literally sitting on my bed overlooking traffic, a Sky Train system, sun is setting, skies are somewhat blue, and I’m eight floors up.  Everything from the air condition, to my kitchen is just SOUND! I’m in love! This is a big part of what could be my last months here in Thailand. What’s interesting is I was thinking a few days ago about living in my other condo.  If I was there for five days doing nothing during the holidays, I could’ve lost my mind, given the fact there’s nothing in that area except ignorance, and a shopping plaza full of ignorance (lol).  I’m just so grateful to be living in Bangkok because it’s just active.  Hell, I just went running recently down the streets and these office women were looking at me, biting their lip.  My physical environment is at a 10 at home. However, work is work…and until I have an interview next week on Skype with a potential employer in Santiago, it will remain a source of income.

Goals for the year is definitely to live in a place where there isn’t any music (if I move), and have a job that I can make money on top of money.  I want to have projects like I have here in Thailand…but in Chile.  Only time will tell.

Podcast

Fun & Hobbies Goals For 2018

An implementation of “fun time” during the week is absolutely vital at this point.  I believe living in a slummy area (what I seriously deemed as a slummy area) in north Bangkok where the mindsets were extremely low…it took away from me meeting a lot of amazing people.  The monolithic perception of “blacks” being labeled as “bad” and the “wife tourists” being labels as “wonderful human beings” took so much of a toll on me.  The funny part about all of it was I was the one who decided to stay in this area from October 2014 – December 2017.

I took the “great leap” last September when I decided to join a gym — the Lab BKK.  What’s so special about this gym (and of course the price dug well into my pockets) the business-minded entrepreneurs who work out there.  The majority of everyone speaks solid English and it made me realize that Thai women are accepting of African American men.  However, if you trek about 10 minutes north of DMK Airport in north Bangkok, you can find yourself in an extremely racist society.

I’ve neglected my own self from being around these ultra-successful people.  I finally had reality slap me real hard in the face around the same time (September) when I decided to teach millionaires – all of which were over the age of 30, accepting of my color, and SO HAPPY with life!

This also stemmed from me telling my primary job that I wanted time by myself on a Sunday morning.  The rebellion began at the beginning of last year, and it ultimately lead to somewhat of a demise at a present job — followed by a rapid emergence all around Bangkok.

I traveled to America, Malaysia, and the Maldives, but it felt like I was doing more escaping rather than going on a holiday.  The last trip westward to Kanchanaburi (3 hours drive from Bangkok) was an epitome of ‘when things go wrong, go travel.’  However, when I was on this trip I just kept thinking about my well-being.  How one angry individual now possessed the power to do whatever he wanted or wants with me.

NEVER — and I’m saying NEVER — go on trips when you have baggage on the table in your physical environment at home, work, or anywhere else.  If you go on holiday and all you think about is what’s happening back home, you’ve spoiled the entire trip.  I believe that it happened a couple of times (in Arizona and Kanchanaburi) and I wasn’t able to be fully immersed in what was happening.

Being able to put “fun” in your schedule is vital.  My motto this year is “make the same amount of money but in a fraction of the time.”  Well, it’s soon going to start working! If I can somehow teach for two hours on a Saturday morning, it can total nine hours of teaching that I currently do on a Saturday and Sunday; dealing with the ignorance in the racially infested province, teachers gossiping about how wonderful I am (lol), and so many other factors.

Fun and hobbies can be anything ranging from working out with awesome people, going running, going for a movie by yourself, walking the dog, having a drink by yourself and chatting with passerbys, or anything.  I haven’t been able to enjoy that because there was NO WHERE in the area I can do that….but now, times have changed.

Ok, we have travels.

For Sures 

  1. Indonesia
  2. Malaysia (possibly this month
  3. Kazakhstan + Kyrgyzstan

Potentials

  1. Australia (high chance)
  2. Hong Kong
  3. Taiwan
  4. Morocco (Tedx)

On-The-Ropes

  1. American Samoa
  2. Japan

So these are the trips.  Some revolve around the Spartan Race; others are real vacation.  But what about in Thailand?

  • Fit in relaxation (this could be with great people over amazing food)
  • Enjoy the scenery (don’t always be tugged away in my condo and go to the rooftop)
  • Meet new people (and especially not on Craigslist – LOL!!)
  • Ask for feedback (have more people listen to my podcast around Thailand and become well-known)

Swimming, playing basketball, running the streets, going to a park to do random pull-ups.  These things will come a long way.

Podcast

https://www.spreaker.com/user/thearseniobuckshow/fun-hobbies-goals-for-2018